now's the time

OK fine, so im hot-tempered, im insensitive at times, im opinionated and most of all im very self defensive. but despite all of those, i get hurt too. now the time has finally came. he had lost control and temper, everything bottled up inside him has exploded. i cant blame him. if i were him, i'd have blasted too a long time ago. i just cant believe it. it might be that i was just so lax thinking he has unlimited patience in  stored for be. i should have known better. im ready to face the consequences though. it's scary and embarrassing of course. you know, having a personality like mine, someone who doesn't want to lower down one's pride, will sometime lead you spiraling down as well. cant learn my lesson the easier way, then i'd have it the hard way (as always). oh my g*d, cant believ im writing something like this. i just want to let it out, i cant contain the discomfort and pain i feel right now. :(